Proverbs 1:7

The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge,
       but fools despise wisdom and discipline.

I wish I could learn my lessons quickly and not have to deal with the consequences at a much later time. It appears to be a repeating behavior. My lack of impulse control paired with blatant disregard for those around me has time and again placed me in the lowest of positions, a grave if you will. It is disgusting the kind of prayers I whisper to God when I face my rude awakenings: Please, Lord, if You can just get me out of this one I promise I will be a changed person...Then of course when things don't pan out the way I had hoped, I view God disdainfully, believing Him to be a just yet unmerciful God who ensures that I pay for my sins to the fullest extent. I am utterly horrified with my own actions, my uncanny ability to scorn God when I have to 'pay' for my mistakes and my astonishing blindness to His glory and blessings. Even I know the likes of me are considered foolish. In all seriousness, I am desperate for a change in my character. At this time, absolutely nothing else holds greater bearing.

So old, so cold

Happy birthday to my darling husband! On this day twenty-something years ago, your testicles dropped from your heart.

Baby, what a year this has been. I need you to know strong you have been for the both of us, how you've kept us afloat. I can't express in words just how blessed I am to be your wifey.

Things to look forward to in 2010-2011:

1. My employment
2. Your graduation
3. Travel 

We're golden!

Go and make disciples

October

The long months of waiting are finally over! I am employed! Hallelujah! I will be working on the Neuro stepdown unit at The Medical Center of Plano beginning October 18. What a blessing! And what more, the hospital is only 10 minutes away from my house! I'm overjoyed and thankful to all the supportive people who have lifted their prayers for me. God's timing is so utterly perfect that it knocks the wind right out of me.

My parents are in town now, which has been most pleasant. They will be preparing to leave for Indonesia as soon as their visas come in from the Indonesian Embassy in Washington D.C. One aspect I'm especially happy about is that my mom has been cooking for us.

October is Danish's favorite month. Not only is his birthday coming up on the 12th, but the cool weather brings much relief from the Texas heat, there's football, bustling activity, I'll be working, Halloween, and lots of outdoor activities - bike rides, frisbee, dog parks, long walks! Just two weeks ago, I was mournful of summer leaving...I had been listening to songs which I felt captured the sadness and loneliness one may feel as the remnants of a golden summer slip away, only to turn into a forlorn fall. I still had faith that God would provide and things would be alright even if I didn't have a job. But my, my what a refreshing change it is to no longer feel the anxiety of inevitable change and involuntary forward motion that fall usually brings. I know, I'm quite dramatic.

Flame ball lie

My student Eric and I watched this video and decided to give the experiment a try. It did not work.

Orange flowers

I am in dire need of a camera. We have a new puppy named Bella who is the funniest-looking mini schnauzer I have ever seen. Danish and I attended an extreme midget wrestling match which, aside from being kind of creepy, was very humorous and entertaining. I went to the Improv club to see Flip Orley, a hypnotist. After little persuasion from my friends, I volunteered to be on stage with 10 other people to be hypnotized. It didn't work and he was not funny. Danish and I saw the Pixies at Verizon Theatre, which was utterly fantastic. I really would like to take pictures for memories' sake.

Bella

Meet the newest addition to our family. Tank is not very pleased.

I like to pee on the carpet