In this song, I am Romeo

A lovestruck Romeo sings the streets a serenade
Laying everybody low with a love song that he made
Finds a street light, steps out of the shade
Says something like, "You and me babe, how about it?"

Juliet says, "Hey it's Romeo, you nearly gave me a heart attack"
He's underneath the window, she's singing, "Hey la, my boyfriend's back
You shouldn't come around here, singing up at people like that"
Anyway, what you gonna do about it?

Juliet, the dice was loaded from the start,
And I bet, then you exploded in my heart,
And I forget, I forget, the movie song
When you gonna realize, it was just that the time was wrong, Juliet?

Come up on different streets, they both were streets of shame,
Both dirty, both mean, yes and the dream was just the same,
And I dreamed your dream for you, and now your dream is real
How can you look at me as if I was just another one of your deals?

Well you can fall for chains of silver, you can fall for chains of gold
You can fall for pretty strangers and the promises they hold
You promised me everything, you promised me thick and thin yeah
Now you just say, "Oh Romeo, yeah, you know I used to have a scene with him"

Juliet, when we made love you used to cry
You said "I love you like the stars above, I'll love you till I die"
There's a place for us, you know the movie song
When you gonna realize, it was just that the time was wrong, Juliet?

I can't do the talk like the talk on the TV
And I can't do a love song, like the way it's meant to be
I can't do everything, but I'll do anything for you
I can't do anything except be in love with you

And all I do is miss you, and the way we used to be
All I do is keep the beat, the bad company
And all I do is kiss you, through the bars of a rhyme
Juliet, I'd do the stars with you, anytime

Ah Juliet, when we made love you used to cry
You said I love you like the stars above, I'll love you till I die
There's a place for us, you know the movie song
When you gonna realize, it was just that the time was wrong, Juliet?

And a lovestruck Romeo he sings the streets a serenade
Laying everybody low, with a love song that he made
Find a convenient streetlight, steps out of the shade
And says something like, "You and me babe, how about it?"

"You and me babe, how about it?"

Happy New Year

First time in 7 years to face it alone. I wish with all my heart that he would change his mind about divorcing me. I love him so much it hurts.

Danish

Yet Pharaoh's heart became hard and he would not listen to them, just as the Lord had said. (Exodus 7:13 NIV)

I wish he would not harden his heart, but the Lord allowed for him to do so.

Hannah

This is how I know you don't love her: you are willing to take away her security and sense of well being for the sake of your own needs. How is that sacrificial love? Your love for her is like that of an affectionate pet-owner who is having fun playing with their cute puppy! You don't consider that one say she will grow into a young adult like ourselves and instead of laying a foundation of values as a Christian, you will teach her to disregard advice, not believe in the power of prayer and change, and give up immediately at the event of a crisis. Your intentions of being a good father stem from your need to validate your own worth and ability, not to season her perspective with insight and wisdom. As adults and parents, we are to set aside our needs to give something more to our children. Children learn from example, and I wanted for us to teach Hannah love and forgiveness. That is why the Bible says children are a blessing, because in loving them unconditionally we better understand God's agape love for humanity.

A lifetime of divorce because he couldn't brave the temporary wait period to allow God to heal him. 7 years.

Scared

I am scared of what is in store for me. I no longer have a husband and my baby will be divided between two houses. Although I wanted to give her a happy family, her father decided to do things his way which doesn't have her best interest - only his. His parents do not uphold morals nor believe In marriage as they support him fully in his decision. When asked how he would teach our daughter about love and forgiveness, he said he will just teach her not to cause her husband to leave her by being a violent drunk who is self-absorbed. We have no control over what kind of person she will be, what decisions she will make, who she will choose to be with. We can only instill strong values and morals within her and set an example of stability and security as her foundation. How much easier would it be had she not been born...instead she was in such a hurry to come into this cold, dark world. But she is bright sun, full of hope...how much love she stirs in me. I wish I had my husband. I wish I had my family. I'm so scared to be without either.

Someday somehow, this will all make sense...why I had to go through the fire. I believe the Lord is good and His plans for me are good and not harmful. I won't be able to enjoy what He has in store for me in the next chapter of my life unless I endured the gruesome hardships in this one. I love my husband and have done everything I can to bring him back home, but the Lord has a different idea. I fully trust Him to know what's best for me and Hannah, and I will remain faithful and hopeful.