Scared

I am scared of what is in store for me. I no longer have a husband and my baby will be divided between two houses. Although I wanted to give her a happy family, her father decided to do things his way which doesn't have her best interest - only his. His parents do not uphold morals nor believe In marriage as they support him fully in his decision. When asked how he would teach our daughter about love and forgiveness, he said he will just teach her not to cause her husband to leave her by being a violent drunk who is self-absorbed. We have no control over what kind of person she will be, what decisions she will make, who she will choose to be with. We can only instill strong values and morals within her and set an example of stability and security as her foundation. How much easier would it be had she not been born...instead she was in such a hurry to come into this cold, dark world. But she is bright sun, full of hope...how much love she stirs in me. I wish I had my husband. I wish I had my family. I'm so scared to be without either.