January 4, 2013

Do you understand?

"I imagine one of the reasons people cling to their hates so stubbornly is because they sense, once hate is gone...they will be forced to deal with pain."

- James Arthur Baldwin

I don't want to remember how much you hurt me...so instead I dwell on how much I hate her. Strangely, I am burdened with a sinister feeling that the more I hate her, the happier she seems to fare. How is it that my love for you turns me into a monster?

It's going to take me some time...

January 3, 2013

Leave

I don't believe there is ever really a 'happiest moment' in one's life. Still waiting to see the humor in this situation.

January 1, 2013

Wish I could explain

This is the worst feeling ever - to go from hopeful to hopeless in one night. What happened? Who gives a shit about goals and dreams when you're let down by someone you love? Bizarre. Meds. Despondency. Like I said, I wish I could explain...

The New Year

Be mellow, soft-spoken, and respectful, forget the past, and pray more.

December 30, 2012

December 20, 2012

Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord. (Psalm 27:14 NIV)

December 15, 2012