Equivalent retaliation

It's disheartening to be told that I'm not fully repentant, although I feel like I am. Apparently I am to disregard my own anguish in order to display a behavior reflecting change. I'm so tired of thinking these things - tit for tat mind games. To be honest...if this is my reality, I could probably survive. I've been doing it for two months now. So many women do it on a daily basis. I'm sick of my pride. Sick of my selfish nature. I wish I wasn't the one trying to hold this marriage together. I wish I didn't feel this way, but I do.

Hannah Bear is a Tiger

Tired

I feel drained of energy...I'm lost and confused, I feel betrayed...mourning the death of something that will never be mine again.

Lately

Growing like a flower

Heart of stone

It appears my state of emotional well-being remains in the crippled condition as it was one year ago...I think it's nigh time to seek professional help.

3 months

Slipping

Summer is slipping away, and I wonder if I'm so sad because Fall draws about cheerful moods in others whereas the summer heat made everyone miserable...and misery loves company.