TBON

Last night, I had another dream about losing teeth. This time it was one of my front teeth that was knocked out when Diana head-butted me on the dance floor. I tried to jam it back into the socket, causing much pain and discomfort. I went to a 'specialist' who said the surgery to put the tooth back in would cost me $5000.

"That's as much as a boob job!" I said.

"Yes, but people are willing to pay more money to have their teeth look nice rather than their breasts," he replied.

I reluctantly agreed with him and decided to put the expense on my already maxed out credit card, knowing Danish would kill me when he found out what I had done to our credit score.

Then I woke up because I had to pee. Needless to say, I checked myself out in the mirror to make sure I had all my teeth. When I went back to bed, I couldn't fall asleep. I laid there thinking about why I have these dreams. I think I've mentioned before that I have these 'mouth/teeth' dreams when I have some unresolved issues that are causing great anxiety both consciously and subconsciously. Then I thought if I could just believe my teeth will never fall out, I wouldn't worry so much. This is a stretch, but that is exactly what faith is - my faith in God. If I could just believe God will never give me more than I could bear and that He cares for me and loves me, then I wouldn't worry so much. That makes sense to me. My teeth are pretty sturdy, I floss everyday, I'm sure I have enough Vitamin C in my diet...I suppose I need to work on my faith with as much effort.

This is a ridiculously random epiphany, but I seem to learn that way. "For no temptation (no trial regarded as enticing to sin), [no matter how it comes or where it leads] has overtaken you and laid hold on you that is not common to man [that is, no temptation or trial has come to you that is beyond human resistance and that is not adjusted and adapted and belonging to human experience, and such as man can bear]. But God is faithful [to His Word and to His compassionate nature], and He [can be trusted] not to let you be tempted and tried and assayed beyond your ability and strength of resistance and power to endure, but with the temptation He will [always] also provide the way out (the means of escape to a landing place), that you may be capable and strong and powerful to bear up under it patiently." 1 Corinthians 10:13

Dreams

Whenever I feel something is out of my control, I have painfully realistic dreams of my teeth falling out. Last night, I dreamt I was flossing and pulled a molar out. Other times, I would bite into a food item and a few teeth would become loose and eventually fall out; one bad one, all of them came loose and were crunching around in my mouth before I spit them out. I've noticed that it's when I'm completely hopeless that I have these teeth dreams. When I'm stressed, I dream the inside of my cheeks and lips sloughs off...