If I make it at all

Scratch that, I'm not in the mood for music this week. Plus I don't think another local show will top last Friday's show at Hailey's...not for a while at least. I learned something interesting today about people with mania - their "normal" is on a different level than the rest of us, resulting in characteristics such as euphoria, grandiosity, and increased interest in goal-directed activities. I'm not sure if I have that kind of temperament, but I sure do feel like Danish is never on my level with anything. I always feel he is never as happy, sad, inspired, stressed, angry, or in love as much as I am. I can be a little over the top sometimes, taking things to the extreme; however, it makes me wonder if he has any feelings at all! The only feeling I can see in him is indifference, or at least that is what I interpret it as. Then I'll get mad and he'll say, "What did I do? I didn't even do anything!" Then we fight. Haha, not always. Anyway, if I can manage to channel my stress and frustration into studying, that would turn out perfectly. I have been finding it difficult to concentrate on anything lately. The weather makes me sleepy, planning makes me anxious, and Danish makes me crazy. "A husband is one who stands by you in troubles you wouldn't have had if you hadn't married him."