After the lake, Daniel had to go to band practice and I went to Miriam's Passion Party. It was plenty fun, but I was so exhuasted from the sun that I couldn't even enjoy all the alcohol there. Julie was making everyone tequila poppers - tequila and 7up in a shot glass, covered with with a paper towel, and pounded twice on the counter to make it fizz up. It tastes like champagne. Sex toy parties are such novelty; everyone cannot help giggling their heads off in sheer embarrassment as they pass the vibrators and dildos around.
Yesterday, Daniel and I went to Movies 14 in Allen to watch Year One during matinee hours. It was so disappointing that we snuck into a second movie, Night at the Museum, to make up for it. Fortunately the second movie was far better. We ate dinner at Cici's and had a great conversation about future plans on the car ride home. I confessed to him feelings I had for another person while we were separated. It didn't make him too happy, but I was beyond relieved. The truth was I was an idiot during that time - insecure and starved for attention. I'm just glad it's all over with, that all those feelings have dissipated. Something just clicked hard and fast in my feeble mind, and I am truly remorseful but at the same time refreshed. What a world's difference it is to be emotionally available; when you're not into something whole-heartedly, it dies. I won't let us die. Not after all we've been through, no siree.