After tonight, I am convinced he is not replaceable. Although I would be okay if he left me, I could never find another to take his place. There is no one like him...I could search heaven and earth and not find a person like him. I must cherish him as though my life depended on it. I dare not lose him again.

I am replaceable. He does not have to look far. I'm common and everyday. Just a girl. If he wanted, he could find someone like me or better.

I question how we can get through this with both our self esteems virtually zero...surely we could not hold one another up when we are weak with defeat and riddled with welts of past wrong doings.

The Lord is our strength, and I'm willing to make the extra effort even as I hurt. I have to believe that for now the worst part is over and we are striving for joyous reconciliation.