Decimate

Lately I've been waking up feeling drained rather than energized. I wonder if it's the bed or the sweltering heat we're forced to sleep in on account of my mother's frugality. I just love to blast the AC. It's my "fat" nature that causes me to be so intolerable of high temperatures. Strangely, summer is my favorite season.

Ok, so brace yourself...I got a job! Or students, rather. Both girls are in 9th grade and I will be tutoring them Algebra 2 and English. I start tomorrow. I really thought God intended me to move on from tutoring kids and seek employment in a different field - particularly the hospital field. I guess that opportunity will come another time. I'm so relieved...as you know I dreaded the thought of working a "real" job - long hours with little pay compared to my few hours with a whopping load of cash!

On the same subject, I have a student named Eric whose brother Joo died three years ago yesterday. He and his mother were going to visit his grave after lunch, but I regretfully couldn't accompany them because I didn't have time. You see, Joo was one of my students three years ago and during that time, he was diagnosed with a brain tumor which progressed rapidly. He was in and out of the hospital and his head swelled up so much it made his face unrecognizable. I remember trying to help him into the bathroom because he wasn't feeling well from the chemotherapy, but we were too late and he threw up all over me. I started to cry as he and his mother were apologizing to me in embarrassment. I desperately wanted to hold them in my arms and tell them it was completely alright; instead I just cried and cried. Sometimes that language barrier can really hinder true feelings - I wanted so badly to express to them my compassion and support. It was a heart-wrenching experience because I had never known someone to die. I don't consider Eric to be a client, but more like family. I'd drop anything I'm doing to help them out. Can you imagine losing your son like that? I can't. It's just too sad to even think about. I hope I can always be there for them and that they would always be a part of my life.