Restless

For some reason these past couple of days have been terribly slow. I'm anxious for this week to be over. I'm not sure how to describe it, but sometimes I'm overcome with a wave of crazy thoughts and feelings which make me capable of causing some serious damage...I'm like a ticking time bomb. I want to crawl out of my skin. I disgust myself. I wonder if I've become accustomed to the drastic turn of events that systematically occur in my life that I unknowingly sabotage the things that are good and stable. I wish I didn't feel like such a...lunatic.