Lobotomy

It was this time last year when you walked out on me and didn't come home for 5 long months. You had an affair with a woman I had my suspicions of, and you filed for divorce on the last day of the year. How can I ever forget such horrific events? If only I could find a way to erase these sad memories.

Normal neurotic neediness

What is about me that I constantly feel at a loss of control? I feel like a ticking time bomb about to go off...I want to laugh out loud; I want to jump for joy; I want to scream in rage; I want to crumble to the ground.

"We may not be aware of the ways neurotic behaviors disrupt our lives and prevent us from being happy and fulfilled. We may also not be cognizant of the fact that our neurotic tendencies lead us to suffer and prevent us from growing to our potential."

I miss you...in a sorrowful way,
from a very deep and hollow place inside of me...
you're like a vapor - I see you and feel you,
yet you vanish as soon as I reach out to hold you...
I feel as though I will never be one with you as God intended
All I have is the ever longing of you
A disastrous loneliness crushing me to the depths of gravity...
Even as I stand beside you, lay beside you,
Bear your children and foster our reality
This reality - I don't know anything else...
I wonder if I dare to imagine it any different

Decent despite dispassion

Some of the things...sound like things our grandmothers would have told us: "Men will be boys. We let them play their little games with each other. We know it isn't about the important things, but they think so. So we let them. We take care of them so that they can go on playing..." What grandma did not tell us is that men are capable of something altogether different....But even though men are untapped wells of potential, they will not move forward if women continue to subsidize the status quo.

-Jean Baker Miller

Wanderlust

"An ache for distant places"

Texas is a no-fault divorce state.

This means that the party who wants a divorce does not have to show a specific misbehavior on the part of the other spouse, such as adultery, abandonment, drunkenness or addiction, abuse, etc.

The party simply has to state that there is no chance the marriage will be patched up, and that is sufficient grounds for a divorce.

Section 3.01

If only

"Was I deceiv'd, or did a sable cloud
Turn forth her silver lining on the night?"